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Strong - Frida Kahlo
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It's all fun until someone loses an eye... or something...


I'm already having issues with this experiment.  I'm feeling depressed because I feel like I'll be way bigger than the other girls.  I've chatted to some people on Twitter who think I've become delusional about my weight and think that I shouldn't do the course if it's making me feel so stressed, but I'm not going to give up on it that easily and I'M NOT GOING TO STOP EATING.    Just because I had a moment of weakness doesn't mean I'm going to cave and start taking Cocaine and vomitting or something stupid like that.  I just felt crap.  That's all.  It will pass, like all other stupid fleeting crappy feelings that bring you down until you eat another Caramel Bon Bon.  Take a deep breath everyone.  : )  I'm ok.

It doesn't help that I'm also going through a divorce, I'm unemployed and my daughter has become harder to look after because she isn't enjoying her parents living in separate houses.  I'm doing it tough, so it makes things a little more challenging at times, but I know I'll get through.

Here's a picture of me with no make-up or clothes on, just to cheer you up...



Now lets never fight again.  : )



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I know anything I say will just be kind of silly, because you're going through it & not me, but I think you have nothing to worry about. I think there's room for all types of people in modeling & you have a rather unique look about you, which always helps. It gets boring looking at the same type of person all the time. God (or whatever you believe created you), didn't mean for us to all look the same....well, unless you're an identical twin!! :) Like you told Sophia in another post, embrace the crap out of your muchness!!!

Ha ha, what would I do without you Jenn??? You always say exactly the right thing everytime. I'm holding on to what's left of my muchness right now, but it'll come back. Lol.

*hugs*

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