The Flash

A List of Herbs, Foods & Supplements: FTA Natural Transition: (Female to Androgynous).

I have been meaning to supply this list for a while, but I had to make sure that they worked before I could say anything.  Even now I am still waiting for another blood test to give me even more results to show me how much of a difference these methods are making.  I will list the changes that have occured first and then let you know what herbs etc. are recommended.

Please consult a Trans friendly Naturopath before you administer these herbs to yourself, unless you are using foods that have these minerals in them already or herbal teas.

Note: These are a list of the changes that have occured over the last couple of months of taking these herbs and supplements.  Please note that I have had about 20 years of experience with researching natural remedies, herbs, supplements and dietry requirements.  It's important to take safe quantities of eveything, which is why I recommend consulting a Naturopath first.

List of Changes:

  • Noticeable deepening of the voice.

  • Slightly more facial hair.  Shave it if you want it to grow back thicker and faster, in order grow a beard and mustache.

  • Noticeable weightloss, with muscle definition in the arms.

  • Considerable rise in energy levels, however energy dropped considerably around time of menstruation.  (Supplemented with Iron tablets and vitamin D.  My GP prescribed some Tranexamic Acid, which lessons the blood flow when menstruating).

  • Emotions harder to connect with.

  • Considerably raised libido, depending on the time of my menstrual cycle.

  • Some hair loss was experienced, but then my hair got thicker and was replaced quickly, possibly due to my intake of Turmeric.

  • Acne: on occasion acne appears in the morning, but is gone either by the afternoon or by the next morning.  Again this is possibly due to my intake of Turmeric and the zinc supplements that  I will mention.

  • Change in body odour and change in odour of urine.

  • Rise in appetite.  (I hear all of these changes are similar to being a teenage cis-gender boy).

  • Slow decrease in the size of breasts.

List of Herbs and Supplements to Assist Blocking and Cleansing of Estrogen and to Assist the Raising of Testosterone:

  • Turmeric: is a natural estrogen blocker and a testosterone raiser.

  • Black Pepper: estrogen blocker and testosterone raiser.

  • Magnesium and Zinc Supplments: both support the hormones in general and help keep the uterus in good health.  Zinc also helps with the condition of the hair and skin, which becomes very important when your testosterone levels rise.

  • Bio-Activated Resveratrol: testosterone raiser.  (You can buy this as a supplement from just about any chemist).

  • OestroClear: is a supplement that you have to order through your Naturopath.

  • Organic Noni Juice: scientifically proven to block estrogen.  Some doctors have prescribed it to cis-gender women who have breast cancer, to stop the dominance of estrogen, so that they can heal.

  • Vitamin D: lowers estrogen.

  • Iron Supplements: lessons bleeding during menstruation.

I have a few other supplements that I take, but they have either been prescribed by my Naturopath or are very strong and I wouldn't want to recommend something that may cause harm, if taken in the wrong doses etc.  Please make sure you do this with supervision.

I am not only doing a lot of research on this, I am also being monitored by my local Naturopath, who is Trans friendly. I always look up whatever I'm putting into my body.  (Note: before my Naturopath started treating me, I supplied them with all of my letters of reference for gender transitioning and re-assignment).

Additional Herbs and Foods that Lower Estrogen:

  • Broccoli

  • Ginger

  • Garlic

  • Nettle

  • Globe Artichoke

  • Rosemary

  • Fresh Lemon Juice

  • Pineapple

  • Kale

  • Fermented Soy Milk: by Bonsoy.

  • Dandelion Tea

  • Milk Thistle

  • Green Tea

  • Grated Carrot

I would incorporate these into the diet and start doing some exercise.  Estrogen stores itself in our fat cells, so you must start doing some cardio to lose some weight and lift some weights to help increase testosterone.  I also advise increasing your protein and drinking more water.

Note about Anger and Libido: It is important to manage these.  I use homeopathy to manage the anger and take long walks if needed to help calm myself down.  Anger can be controlled if you remove yourself from the situation and breathe.  Same with libido.

Note: I am writing all of this in response to my experience with these methods.  My research has been mainly done on the internet and if you have the time to do some research yourself, there is plenty on Google to back up what I'm saying.  Some of the evidence will contradict what I say, but that is because of the years of experience I have in taking these things for other ailments.  My experience shows me that these things work.

Take care and consult your Naturopath for further advice and support.


ps: This is one particularly good reference, since it explains the importance of blocking the estrogen, to make sure that the testosterone that is raised doesn't turn back into estrogen. Click on this LINK.



Just in case you are not in the know... My preferred name is ML...  I don't think I properly explained that in any of my new posts.  I finally settled on ML which was chosen and given to me by two of my dear friends.  Thank you to everyone who has been kind enough to call me my preferred name, especially my partner Mat.



I Am... My Own Experiment

I'm currently changing my diet and only eating organic when I can afford it, to see if I can alter my hormones naturally.  One of the doctors I went to administered all of the wrong drugs, so I ended up getting really sick.  My partner and I have done years of research on healthy eating and herbology, so we're using me as an experiment to see if we can do this without drugs.

I'll let you know what the results are if there are any changes.

Black Pepper


Vulnerability: with Brene Brown

Edit: 08 Feb 2015
Remember to develop and keep boundaries.  One of the lessons you learn from vulnerability is the ability to know who to trust and how much to trust.

Below is a clip from Brene Brown, the woman who does talks on vulnerability.  She's one of my favourite researchers.

Willingly making yourself vulnerable is counter-cultural, however the moment you do it with courage and realise that in that space you are being strong, your world changes for the better...  If you feel ready, give it a try.  Showing that you're ok with vulnerability shows others that they are not alone... and that you are human too.


The Trouble With God...

God isn't in church for me.  God is in art and nature.  God is in people.

I hadn't had a, "moment," with God in ages.  You know the kind where you're filled with a sense of awe and wonder, you might cry or feel ecstatically happy.  It's a moment that you know isn't of this world.  The kind, where you try to explain it to your friends and they look at you like you've lost your mind, but you don't care because you feel good.

I had that awesome moment watching X-Men Days of Future Past.  It gave me hope.

This is an image from a friend's tumblr blog.  Thanks for being inspiring and thought provoking Phil.  :)

The Flash

It's been a while...

Over due for an update.  I don't know where to start, so much has happened and some of it I can't say in public, because my dad is now on Facebook, talks to me on Twitter and probably checks my blog... *waves*  Hi dad...  Lol.  (Dad, ask your friends what lol means).

I'm still optimistic about my future, taking baby steps into the destiny that has been laid out for me.  Still working out what that is.  Health is better.  Making new friends.  Gained a another mentor who is also the bees knees.  :)  Feeling blessed to have an awesome partner and a wonderful daughter.  Relationships with my mum and dad are pretty great too.

Oh and after years of roaming around aimlessly, we have found a new church to go to.  It is totally LGBTI accepting and loving and I feel safe there.

Last week I lit a candle for the trans community, had a bit of a cry.

Hope all is well in your world.

Here are a few images of what I've been inspired by, been doing and love...

David GandyKate Mosscoffee
Inspired by David Gandy's style.  Enjoying watching the fashion industry.  Drinking loads of caffeine.

valentines day 2014church candleAndre and Erika
Mat & I at Valentines day.           The candle I lit at church.                  Andrej Pejic and Erika Linder. Genderqueer models.

Loumarriage equality rally 2014thumb
Me dressed in men's clothing.               I also went to the marriage equality rally.
(Sometimes ppl call me Lou).

The last photo is of me showing off my stitches, the day I sliced my thumb while preparing dinner.  I was drying a knife.  That was weeks ago now and I'm healing up nicely.

PS: Thank you to everyone who has been so sweet and supportive towards me and my little family.  You honour us with your love and care. x

mxlovely : New Resource

Please take the time to have a look at this new website. Inside Exgay has a wide cross section of the community discussing Exgay therapies and how they effect people, families and communities.


Strong - Frida Kahlo

I will say of the Lord, “She is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”

Even though God has not protected me from every calamity, drama, violence etc.  I often find this passage soothing...

Psalm 91

Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.[a]
2 I will say of the Lord, “She is my refuge and my fortress,
    my God, in whom I trust.”

3 Surely she will save you
    from the fowler’s snare
    and from the deadly pestilence.
4 She will cover you with her feathers,
    and under her wings you will find refuge;
    her faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
    nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
    nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
    ten thousand at your right hand,
    but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
    and see the punishment of the wicked.

9 If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
    and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
    no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For she will command her angels concerning you
    to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
    you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

14 “Because she loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue her;
    I will protect her, for she acknowledges my name.
15 She will call on me, and I will answer her;
    I will be with her in trouble,
    I will deliver her and honour her.
16 With long life I will satisfy her
    and show her my salvation.”


The Flash

Update with Some Good News

I thought I might update my journal for those who are not on my facebook and for those who are not on facebook at all and occasionally check in on me to see how I'm going...

I have been sick for quite some time, but I obviously have a lot of people praying for me, because I'm getting better.  I want to say how grateful I am to everyone praying for me.  All of my relationships are on the mend too, including with my parents.  That's a very big deal and a miracle.

Also turning 40 has opened my eyes to a lot about how the world works.  I have stopped expecting so much from myself.  I'm already doing as much as I can with the means I have and the energy I have, as a mum and a partner.  (I'm keeping up my spiritual disciplines as well and they are holding me together at times).

Take care everyone.  I'm very grateful for your support.  Stay tuned for some other good news and improvements.  :)


The Flash

Positive Self Talk...

I haven't been inspired to write for ages, in fact I've been quite sick, fighting against the heat and lethargy, due to a hormonal imbalance that means that I require some day surgery, that couldn't come any sooner...  (Waiting for the public system to do it's thing).

I have been doing my best to push against the tiredness, by keeping up some daily exercise, eating well and daily prayer.  None of this is easy for me and this is what I wanted to journal about.

My parents, in their right are lovely people who get along with everyone.  They do a lot for the community, and most people have great respect for them.  However my upbringing is something that I fight against daily.  My parents have become people that I almost get along with and this is a miracle and I'm grateful for it.  Everyday I pray that God will stop me from reliving old scripts over and over again.  Healing comes slowly and sometimes painfully.  Transformation is definitely painful but rewarding, so I endure it as much as I can to improve myself and feel like I might be able to achieve something in this world.  I also fight against the bad food that my mother ate while she was pregnant with me and what she fed me when I was growing up.  All of these experiences contribute to my physical and mental health, as well as my daily experience of interactions with other people and what I achieve in life.

I think more than anything I just wanted to write one thing.

My parents get very upset when I tell them about all the abuse I received as a child.  They do not want to take responsibility for anything that they said or did that contributes to all the negative stuff that happens to me now.  So here is what they didn't do that could have contributed to me being a highly successful person.

Just for a moment I'm going to pretend that my parents were, supportive, loving, positively encouraging and interested in my mental health.

I wish that they fostered positive friendships with other children at school instead of chasing them all away.  I wish that they saw potential in me to do great things and supported me through achieving these great things...

I'll pretend that they only fed me healthy food that nourished my body and then told me to go out and play outside, instead of sitting me in front of the telly eating comfort foods that kept me quiet and lonely.

I know I'm not the only person that has had a bad childhood.  I'm just saying that... well... I'm taking responsibility of my own actions now.  Patiently waiting for my surgery date to be set and doing the things that I know will help me become the person I want to be in this world.

Also learning from my parents mistakes and raising my daughter differently.

Here's a photo of me hugging myself.  Lol.  Kind of fits the mood.  PS:... I'm graduating in March.  :D  Marylou Lovely Bth.  :D  (Well done Marylou, God will use you in ways you can't even imagine, well done).  :)

God bless. xhug


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